I waffled back and forth about whether or not to close comments on my last post. I ultimately decided to keep them open because I like to think of my blog as not only a record of my life, but also as an ongoing conversation between myself and you, the readers, and I didn't want to close that connection.
I'm so glad I didn't. I was floored (and still am) by the outpouring of love from all of you. There were so many messages of comfort and compassion from those whom I already know, those whom I didn't know and those from people who have been there and share the sorrow of losing a pregnancy.
It's amazing how many of us are out there, isn't it? As Laurie noted in her comment, "It's just not talked about by all us ladies as much as it actually happens." How true that is. Of course I turned to the internet yesterday to find other bloggers who have experienced a miscarriage, but there's not that much out there at all. I did find a gem of a post over at Casey's blog that was just what I was looking for, but I was sorely disappointed by the overall lack of writing about and acknowledging miscarriage.
When something terrible happens, it's human nature to want to commiserate and share the heartache, yet that doesn't seem to hold true in the world of pregnancy loss. On the contrary, it's an extremely private matter. My search did turn up several miscarriage forums, but those sites naturally tend to be a bit less intimate than a personal blog.
I can completely understand why there's not more out there, though. I was so afraid that in telling my story that I would somehow trivialize it, or make our baby and our pregnancy just another example of me oversharing on the internet. It was my intent instead to honor the baby that I carried for exactly 12 weeks today and I do hope that I have achieved that. Writing has always been the way that I deal with heartbreak and it's still proving to be very cathartic to me as I struggle to make sense of this and start the healing process. My story is worth sharing if it helps just me or even one other person to get by.
A huge thank you and hug from the bottom of my heart (and Jon's as well) to all of you for being an outlet, a listening ear and a virtual shoulder to cry on. I assure you, there have been a lot of tears these past few days, but many of them have been tears of gratitude and appreciation from reading all of your precious and heartfelt comments. A special thank you to those who showed the strength to share your own story of grief with me. It's so comforting to feel not quite as alone as I thought I was.
